@abaihya I am so very sorry for your loss. I too lost my Girl to Cancer. I had the mass removed when she was 12 but it returned when she was 16. It feels like you have lost a Child. Her 20th Birthday would have been tomorrow.
You are right to have allowed yourself to grieve for a good amount of time. The folks here on this Forum are very helpful and supportive and they will not steer you in a wrong direction.
I am waiting until my Senior Rescue Cat passes because she is a Killer. She killed my other younger and smaller Cat and the Vets did not believe it until they did a Necropsy and they saw she broke his neck and severed his spinal cord. I cannot bring a Puppy or a Kitten in my home until she passes. She is going on 15 and she bites me all the time. I just will not euthanize a healthy animal. She loves guys and she is a real flirt.
I know my girl lived the longest of her litter. She was a beautiful Tri with a Bandits Mask and a Pink nose. I adored her and took her everywhere. She rode in the Crate whenever we were going someplace and she fell asleep. They MUST be able to Travel in a Crate. Wire Crates are the best because they can see everything.
Good luck finding a new Dog!
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